Zombie walk amongst the great nature

Having morning impaired due to the less that 5 hour sleep last night, I went to two lectures in the morning like a zombie. I was almost passed out after a math-logic blass--a class which requites full sobriety. In comparison things like literature and art might need some zombieness. The weather is great. I floated down to anderson center as if I were drunk, wwi(walking while intoxicated), to check out the on-comming george winston concert. It turned out that it had passed for 1 week, ppl in the box office told me. With a great disappointment I went on my zombie wander up on a grassland where I finally fainted down and fell asleep. When I woke up I saw the blue sky, amazing blue; and all the nature around me. Woke up, stood up, I walked in the semi-conious state and stopped when I saw a squirrel. He or she was hiding a nut in his mouth. This dude hid it while watching at me alertly even two seconds. Eventually he/she hid is under my eyes. Ha! stupid animal; but generally stupidity implies cutiness. So I am sitting on this soht wall recording all these down, under this amazing blue sky. Now I'm going to check the nut out.

1 minute later: Bleh I can't find it, crap! All redish maple leaves covered the soil which makes everywhere looks the same.

biker @ Gotham

Biker NYC video, it reminds me that once upon a time I was a biker doing crazy things on the island of manhattan. BIKE ROCKS!!!

*CLICK ON THE PIC TO WATCH THE VIDEO*

pick up a title

注：刚才我奋发了半天写的东西都被自己不小心弄没了，生气？生气不如从新写下来，人就要有这种倔强。

现在距北京时间十三个小时了。我最近挺无聊的，天天没事就发呆。万圣节应该有很多东西可玩的，回想起以前在纽约的时日和同学去参加万圣节游行，今年他们也去闹鬼的屋子，还有各种party，我呢，一个人在这山沟沟里呆着，自己跟鬼似的。朋友教得也不很多，我楼道里的人让我感觉多多少少有一点认生，排外。他们已经在一起一年了。至于狗么，狗是宠物，换句话说就是被玩弄的东西。人不仅把他们的栖息地捣毁了，还领回家玩儿。我想起原来听到的骇人听闻的事情，美国人打越南的时候把小孩那来当宠物，让人不寒而栗！
今天一来是有时间，二来呆会还要写一篇大作文，这片就写长一点，全当练习了。 亲爱的朋友们，我现在挺好的。有很多不顺和懊恼，但更多的是对未来的展望。到这里，就好像一个人的全部东西被拿走了，衣服被扒光了，所有的证件……

哈，写到这里突然发现原来丢的那一段东西又找到了，现在我把它贴在下面

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现在距北京十三个小时。最近其实挺郁闷的，整天没事干无聊。万圣节应该有很多东西可玩的，回想起原来在纽约的时日和同学去参加游行。他们今年也去闹鬼的屋子还有各种party，我一个人在这山沟沟里，自己跟鬼似的。还是没有交到很多朋友，这帮人有点认生我觉得。至于狗嘛，人不仅把他们的地盘占领了，还领回家当宠物，就是被玩弄的东西。我记得以前有骇人听闻的说是美国人到越南就拿小孩儿当宠物，不寒而栗。
今天无聊，那就多写一点儿，反正待会儿还得写一篇大作文，就全当练习了。亲爱的朋友们，我现在还好。挺多不顺的还有懊恼，但更多的是展望。刚到这里的感觉好像是一个人身上的东西全被拿走了，衣服全被扒光，身份证件统统销毁，记忆也暂时丧失了；然后被扔到一个完全陌生的地方。没人知道你的过去，你自己都记不清了。之后你重新生活，慢慢的一点一点在建立。现在呢，衣服换了身儿新的，东西也置办了一点，但还是缺。最主要的是又敢回忆以前的事情了。斗志也在建立，过不了几天就可以重新战斗了，杀出一条血路来杀向我的目的地。
外界环境确实对人影响很大。我一摘下耳机就听见我室友的电视声了。他看的都是无聊的搞校电视，我都没那种幽默感笑得出来。而且它就在那儿座着，就在那儿座着，也不说话，完全陷入他自己的世界。这种人是很可怕的，至少对我来说。他的存在经常会掉我的意识。环境，是我现在奋斗下去的第一动机，因为我想转到一个好学校，找到更适合我的环境。我原来有格在哈佛上学的朋友，她参加一个项目，天天打电话给世界各地其他学校的人询问当地的情况。我当时听她说真的羡慕死了，想我有一天也应该如此把，所以对大学的期望值很高。
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下面还有一段丢掉了，我试着再把那一段复原把：

可谁知应了那句古话：“故天将降大任于是人也……行拂乱其所为。” 出人意料的我就跑到这个山沟沟里来了。开学的这两个月我也没地方发泄，就天天抱怨我所经历的这一切。我也知道抱怨是没有任何实际作用的。无论发生了什么，要活就要活得精彩。在这里要活得精彩，努力学习转校之后在新环境里要活得更精彩！

生活，理想，激情， 奋斗，爱情，友情

今天要说得就说这么多吧，希望对大家有个借鉴

searching

This should be an appropriate time to write something. It seems I’ve been through a lot these several days. I mean my soul searching, although I haven’t been to anywhere and it’s quite boring to stay in the dorm or perhaps looking at the ceiling. Some thoughts emerged such as reevaluating my past, whether if I did a good job or not. Et cetera. About future I haven’t thought too much but I can sense the light shed through: it’s going to be great. An analogy would be: I am as the man searching for the door knob in a dark room, and all of sudden I see some light pierced in through the slot, and I am coming toward it.

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but I just want to write something, anything. The wind out side is trong, in another word, powerful. I love the winter sensation of giving you some richness without the flattering of summer. It gives you the power and belief.

Rainy Season ends with a concert

It has been rained for 8 days and it stopped today. The comming of the Sun perhaps saved me from depression and boredom. It at least gave me hopes. I went to this classical music concert this evening and first time listened the real organ play. At least, today symbolizes something, something I couldn't tell in the first moment; but it is a good symbol I'm sure. A resurrection of my soul?

New motto of my lifestyle: Living Passionately

Imagine

John Lennon's birthday today. I went to strawberry fields quite a while a ago: it was the first time i went there. There was an indian guy singing beatles' songs with his guitar while I was sitting on the bench across the imagine mosaic. I happend to met him again on my way home at port autority subway station where he asked me the exit and recognized me as "the kid at strwberry field". Well, New york is like this, full of strange encounters. Go back to Lennon, I don't really have things to do on his birthday today. I am writing a college essay describing popular culture and it is mandatory. You kow I will not enjoy it; yet the spirit cannot be forgotten. I will keep struggling.