Anger, a lot of anger!

damn it I want to curse it out! What a freaking world to me now! I know there's Murphy's law things always go towards the worst side because of the selective memory. But too much Sht have been happend on me, losing this losing that, tried hard to remember if there's good luck but too few to remember. for the past week I've been taking pictures of my bike messenger experience but it has all became digital bubble after one misclick. I know there's always tomorrow and I can alwayus fight back. I did but destiny pushed me back, hey destiny, come on, what have I done wrong to deserve the punishment! the most frank moment is but when you were destroyed a lot and then there's yewt another! you cn only smile at your destiny at the moment without any temper. Okay, pictures I can still take. It is not the pictures along to get me mad. Far from it. but everything...okay, not absolutely everything...but a lot of things turned their back to me when I knock on the door. I' is as if I was condemned by something else and they've already knew it. No, I'd rather think it as a test I have to take before achieve something big. There's a chinese proverb from 3000years ago saying the exact samething, that if heaven grant one something big, one would have to suffer from bitterness to his heart and soul, pains to his muscle and bone, hunger to his body and skin, empty his whole body, and lastly, what he does will lead to unwanted consequences. Therefore build his heart and temper, improving his ability.

I wish it's a test, and no, I won't give up myself, never. Mark my word. See what I become.